Heya! In the picture above as you can see I'm slightly getting in the christmas spirit for once :D
Anywaaaay, moving straight on! I met Amanda again, 2-ish months ago, sad I know that it was so long ago, it feels like ages, and I do miss her, alot!!! She was absolutely amazing, once again, she always seizes to suprise me, do you know that? All the time, I thought it wasn't going to go well because basically i think of myself as a pain in the arse - which shows the faith I have in people and myself; which evidently is why my header is "I'm a bitch, I'm a lover"
I was in the auditorium, next to a load of peeps from America...actually quite hilarious that 99% of the audience were either elderly people or Americans, haha!
Ah and me of course ;)
I watched the first half of the play, I was kind of scared because I thought I was going to be sick, as I nearly did whilst watching Parlour Song, although thinking back I think it was the meal I ate an hour before....lets just say the restaurant wasn't brilliant, lol.
During the first half, we as an audience encountered with quite alot of Amanda, I was really happy to see her, desperately happy, and I just couldn't wait until afterwards.
Sitting in the auditorium on my own was harsh on me, because I had no-one's hand to hold while my nerves increased the later it got, but I was alright, I suppose. :o
My friend had informed me that in the second half there was less of Amanda, and she wasn't wrong there!!! I think there were 3 scenes of her in total in the second half of Enron, which really annoyed me (lol), I missed her a bit :'(
Anyway, it came to the end of a very excellent and memorable performance, and I was shaking like anything!!! I got out of the stalls I was sitting in and I nearly fell back down I was so nervous lmao! I was shaking as I was walking and I think the American girl behind me knew I was nervous...how embarrassing.
I went to the cloakroom thingy, gave them my ticket, and got my bag back, and then I rushed up the stairs and outside to get some fresh air, I was seriously nervous at this point, having to do all this on my own was perpetually overwhelming!
Anyway, yes! Teehee, after about 10 minutes she appeared out of the stage door with either an Iphone in her hand, which had earphones dangling from it. I thought...I'd better shout her name before she puts music on and can't hear me lmao. I was standing next to two OAPs whom wanted signatures off of all the cast, which strikes me because poor Eleanor walked right past them with a bottle of champagne and they didn't want her autograph, or maybe they just didn't realise it was her lol.
I raised my voice and said "Amanda!"
Which therefore inclined her to look up at me...I was actually quite scared because for a second she looked a bit angry loool!!! Anyway, that second had come and gone and then she beamed, I was so suprised!
"Apriiiiiil!" she replied.
I was like haha, awesome, now we got past the first bit April.
Anyway, she was really chatty with me and then we hugged, a nice hug, I like her hugs lol and then we talked there for like a minute, in which she explained about some presents she had to quickly purchase for the crew of Enron, like a thank you to them or something...but she invited me downstairs to the bar, whilst walking down she told me that the lovely Samuel West passed on my message "THANK YOU SAMUEL!!!!!!" and when we got downstairs she was like "My friends said they'd wait for me here, where are they?" spinning like 360 degrees to try and find them, I found that so adorable, and then she was like "Oh!! There they are!!" they waved, and I was like omg...I'll just stand here, I don't wanna be rude and look as if I'm listening into their conversation, this is what I'm like, when I'm on my own, I never know where to put myself, and I really don't want to interfere, unless I'm guided then I'm stuck.
Anyway, she sortof did that pull-pointing gesture to me which obviously meant, "Come here" (in a nice way) So I walked over to her, and stood next to her and metaphorically zipped my mouth.
She introduced me to them, and I was like ".......H....h.....h...hi...." I shook the guys hand and then the womans hand, think his name was Duncan, forgot her name :(
I had the Enron playwrite in my hand ready for her to sign it and Amanda was like "Do you want me to sign your book" I was like, she read my mind :P
Before I said anything the woman friend of hers was like "Ohh yes please" and moved the playwrite she had bought towards Amanda - for a joke, and Amanda burst out laughing, and I love her laugh, so I giggled lol, then I was like "Yes, please" with a big grin on my face.
She signed it, and gave it back to me, didn't have a chance to see what she had written to me until later!
I took my parcel for Amanda out of my rather large handbag, which consisted of two cards, one letter and a small gift. (Picture of it below).
...whilst she was talking to her friends about the plays of hers I'd seen, I swear the entire conversation between them was all about me...!
And I gave it to her, and she smiled and took it, and then opened it, it was like watching a 1 year old girl receiving her first Christmas present, it was seriously cute.
She was like "3 cards?!" with a smile, sadly I had to correct her with "Naww, just 2 cards sorry, but there's a letter there so, yay" and she didn't notice there was a gift so I was like..."There's a pressie too" lmao, yes I actually said 'pressie', how embarrassing.
She delved spontaneously again into the parcel and found the present, and was like "Aww that's so cute, and really sweet" and then she said to her friends "April's too kind to me!!" I kindof blushed, but I wanted to make her feel special, because she is, you know.
She gave me a massive hug and said thank you, and then she was like "Okay I've gotta shoot, but I wish I could buy you a drink or something" and kept repeating that she wished she could spend alot more time with me throughout the whole time I spent with her. She said goodbye to her friends and invited me upstairs again with her, to say goodbye and all that jazz, I was walking up the stairs beside her, and I felt her arm go through the arch in my left arm, I was like, wow she's actually linking arms with me right now, wow, wow, wow. Lol at that point I just thought, this is amazing.
She was talking to me whilst I was walking up the stairs, so I told her about the place I auditioned for in a theatre company, she seemed pleased that I went through with it, just gotta tell her I GOT IN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yay, 1 of 15 out of about 100, HAPPY! (Performances start late February, lol)
Anyway she said something to this guy who passed...of which I forgot, as it wasn't important to me.
I also managed to fit in the fact that I booked tickets to see her again on my birthday, she looked really delighted to hear that, and said she hopes she'd have more time to spend with me on my birthday, HAPPY!!!
We got outside and she immediately and randomly asked me for my address...I was worried, I was like, oh no, she's not thinking of turning up at my door for christmas is she...a little message for Amanda "NEVER TURN UP AT MY DOOR WITHOUT ME KNOWING, thankies!!" Not that she's gunna want to come to Bristol to pop in lmao *silly April*, if she did I'd have to change my current desktop background:
lmao, it's huge in full, and I love it I do! :)
Anyway so then she said she wanted to drop me a line when she was free, so I was less worried at that point. I asked if I should write it on the back of the parcel and so she handed me it, and I leaned on a wall, LOL, she was behind me talking, and then she walked RIGHT beside me, I was like, okay, she's really close to me right now, and I'm distracted lmao! If she is an invigulator in my GCSE exams, I think I'd die and get an ungraded in every subject.
I think we hugged again, yay for me and then my dad turned up...ohh god, I was so shy...he was like "You must be Amanda" She didn't say anything until he then said "I'm April's dad" and they shook hands, and Amanda was like "So I've met the whole family now?" I was like "naww, still my other brother to go". My dad was like...attempting badly to flirt with her, and kept saying nice things about me, but didn't mean it at all, he seriously hates me in real life - what a vindictive man =.=
Amanda said she had to go, and so we hugged again, it was hard for me to accept that was the end for like 6 more months :( But....that wasn't the end, quite yet, some kind of emotional magnetic field (yes, sounds stupid) stopped me from walking anywhere, I was reading what she wrote in my playwrite:
saying at the same time to my dad "Awww, bless her, I love her to bits I do" and then I looked up and saw her come towards me, it felt really weird, :o
She was like "Can I take a picture with you?" or something along those lines...I was astonished, I couldn't even reply straight away, but I said yes after like 30 seconds and then we stood somewhere dark and I was like...the picture might be dark. She said as she walked over to a light hanging from the Court "We'll take it here" with a smile, and I walked and stood next to her, she was like "You don't have to if you don't want to" I was like "Of course I do!!!" she put her arm on my shoulder and rested her head against mine, I was so happy that she came back just for me, and because I've become so attached to her over the past year that I find it hard to emotionally leave her. I've never said goodbye to her, since I've known her, I find it far too hard, if I did I would probably cry, lol. So I usually just say a simple - 'Take Care'.
And that's what I said, she walked off, and I watched her go, because that's how sad I am...I wasn't listening to what my dad was saying at all, lmao! But he admitted that the most thing he was proud of to do with me is that I found someone who inspires me of whom is a really really nice person ~ those are his words.
It takes alot to write a synopsis about my Amanda days, it takes alot of time that's for sure, as you will guess by reading the massive paragraphs, it also takes alot of thinking, and remembering how wonderful it is and will remain to be for the rest of my life, of which I'll never ever forget til the day I die ~ means alot!
Hope you enjoyed it as much as I did ~ Love April.
x
